Sad day

My grandfather died today...I don't really know how to feel right now. The last time that i lost someone it was my boyfriend..and it's a completely different relationship then my grandfather. My brother is really sad. I've never seen him cry before and he did tonight. It was sad..it made me sad..but i am afraid to cry. I don't know why.

First day of senior year of college

Tomorrow at eight a.m. is the first day of my last year in college,or as of right now because I am undecided about what I am going to do after school. I have an interview for internships.. I am excited but I am also very very nervous. I hate interviews, i think it's because I'm not good at them. If I was good then it would be different.