I've been proud of myself lately on how i've been doing in school. I don't want to jinx myself but i feel like i have gotten good grades on everything i've done so far so i'm like sweet!

Next Weekend is spring break! I've very excited i'm going to Valdosta and then Florida with my baby baby. Excited excited

Valentines Day

another couples holiday.. i love it and i hate it

I just don't know why

i just don't know why someone can make me feel this way. I feel like if i were to be reading all of my blogs as someone who didn't know me, i would think that i was a little crazy. I would be like wow, this bitch is in love with her boyfriend.. and I am, that's the sad thing.That's the thing that i hate. I hate that. I don't know why and i hate how someone can just completely a totally have my whole mind and soul to them. But does he even know though? i don't think so. I don't think he knows how much i love him. He says he loves me and i know he does but i def feel that i love him more. I feel like a crazy person in love..is this what love is.. love is crazy love makes me crazy love is crazy.

do i even want to be in love anymore? At times it's great, it's great when i know everything he is doing and who he is with if he is not with me. That is what i hate. i hate that i can feel a certain way when he's not with me. It's all great and dandy when we are together. he does nothing wrong ( most of the time) but it's me i feel like. I mean i feel like i just don't trust him when it comes down to it. Why? what is with me and this. is everyone that's in love feel like this too? i hate these bad feelings! ugh!! make them go away.

SunDaY

today was actually a beautiful day. Spent the night at His house last night. I love sleeping with him. I love him so much

i don't even know what to write today i just feel like babbling.

I hate snooping, i hate snooping. cuz you just end up finding something that you obvioulsy were not supposed to find and then your hurt that the whatever you found was being kept from you when you clearly think that you should have known.. so nothing good comes out of this.. except the truth, but that's hardly ever good.

and again.. why is it so cold? Why is it so cold?

Me and Him are going somewhere for spring break right now it's disney world but i am debating on that cuz it's soo expensive. i don't have a job, and i don't have money. It kinda sucks overalll

First Test

First test today, did i study? that would be a hellzano. I always plan on studying and i have full intentions of it,but theni get side tracked but HIM and i'm hanging out with him and i don't want to leave..Boo Boo Hoo.

The weather

Why does it have to be so freakin cold right now. I def used to like winter a lot more when i was younger. I am just so cold all the time and i hate it. i want it to be spring or summer or to just stop being coldddd pleaaaaaaseeeeeeeeee... this weather is outta control.

Not Poop

Went to Athens this weekend.. i think it's pretty amazing how i'm still friends with my close high school friends. This makes me feel like we will prob be friends for life. Yeah we have grown apart but for the most part even when we haven't seen each other fora while then hang out, it feels like not a day has gone by.

The weekend was pretty fun.. went with HIM up there for FRIENDS bday and his bro was playing up there too. It was fun.

The party on friday was interesting, felt like high school a little bit again, it was kinda weird though cuz it was a dance party, and there were actually people dancing, but i didn't know anyone so of course i wouldnt dance.

Sat the concert was fun too, His bro just broke up with the original band so this was only the second bands second time playing. It was not bad though, they were nervouse i'm sure.

SO i pretty much spent all weekend with him. I feel like i spend everday with him, but i can't help it. I love him, i want to spend everyday with him. We talk about getting married and being together for the rest of our lives and i want that so bad but a part of me knows not to get my hopes up. i know a lot can change quickly, we've only been togehter for a little over 6 months, but do love him a lot and i'm so in love with him. I want to be with him forever if that's even possible.

Love My Life

I have it pretty good. I have a family that is still here and they care about me even though they can drive me crazy. i have wonderful friends who will be there for me not matter what. I have a wonderful boyfriend who love me and i love him. My life is good. I have it good.

I wish i could travel, whenever i see that people around the world don't have as much as i do i really wish that i could help. I would love to just be able to go whereever whenever i want. I would love to go and help the ones in need, or be able to put a hand in something imporaant.