Lonely Nights

I can't ever sleep when i am by myself anymore. I have been spoiled with sleeping with the one that i love and i can't seem to ever fall asleep when i want to when i'm at home. It's so much more comforting to know that there is someone next to me holding me when i fall asleep. And the best thing is waking up and seeing them right next to you. The in the middle of the night parts of kinda blurry but when i do wake up and roll over and feel his warm body next to mine it just makes it all that much easier to fall back asleep...

Which brings me to another issue.. why am i still living at home? OMG i could rant on this forever.
why is that Foreign parents believe that they have to live by certain rules of their culture and not some of the other ones.. you can't really pick and choose what rules you want to follow.. can you?

I am 21..i live at home with my parents. YES .. it sucks. I'm asian.. i'm not white, i'm not white i'm not white i am asian.. this is what i hear constantly from my mothers mouth. I KNOW I"M ASIAN AND NOT WHITE.. but why can't i move out? Why can't i live on my own. I have before and i def had way more responsibilities then i do now. I took care of myself.

i know sometimes it's the fact that they don't want me to leave, but still, this puts a def strain on the relationship i have with my family. I can't stand being home and see them and hearing my mothers screaming voice in my freakin ear every freakin day. I don't know how much longer i can take of this.